dush dush dush

went out to THE MALL today and bought like TONS of snacks for the trip to rome. can't wait for the cruise :) spent around 30 bucks on snacks alone. and the worst part is that i already ate half of the stock just now :(:( curse my lack of self control!! am probably gonna shop for more snacks soon. yuummm :9 can't wait!

packed for the trip a bit today 'cause my mum forced me too. she was busy packing all day. it was unnerving having her packing in the room next to mine; always calling me for errands and asking me to stop playing games on the com. it was truly irritating. o_o

other then packing and shopping, i spent my time playing trickster. (yeah. i know. very geeky ain't it? lol.) i stopped playing when a particular quest kept getting me killed. then i got too pissed off and frustrated to play. after that, to lighten my mood, i opted for some retail therapy by browsing through a number of online boutiques. and now, im happy again :) wheeeee~

raya was spent with her and her onlyyy

she's as cute as a button and has the puffiest cheeks i've ever seen.
she has weird curly-ish straight hair that looks totally retro.
her thighs are bigger then my arms and her arms look like sausages. literaly. (teehee~)
she's as loud as she is big and is as adorable as she is mengada.
she is oh-so-very hard to please and she weighs roughly around 10kg.
and she's barely 6 months old!!!
huge huh?
lol. (i'm so meannnn xD)
oh. and she's my baby sister, aiza.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww :3


yeah...she can get very grumpy sometimes. in fact, the shirt she's wearing is so ironic! xD

(note: btw. these pictures were taken months ago. so try to imagine her 3 times bigger. yeah. i know. big and sihat as hell ryte? x))



anyways. i spent the whole day of raya babysitting this 'thing' so called 'bundle of joy'. lol. my arms have nearly fallen off their sockets. she's so bloody heavy and she's so demanding too. she just HAS to be carried like, ALLLL the time. i think i've literally developed muscles on my upper arm. lol. thank goddd she's cute. if not, jaga-ing her would be unbearable. i think that's why god made babies cute. they're just really hard to take care of. and very anoying sometimes too.
and aiza is definitely not an exception.

but i still love her anyways :3
and taking care of her was still so much fun. she has the loveliest smile and produces the most wonderful laugh that just emits pure unfiltered joy. it's just so infectious, you can't help but joining in :) and hugging her is like the best feeling ever!! :D

she's definitely my wittle sugar pie :):):):):) <3 xoxoxo
omg. she looks so garang here. lol. and yesh. she does look a bit like a baby boy. we get that a lot. even when she's wearing a cute pink dress. its so weird.. O_O

tagged by fyza

this 'sexy survey' is fucking really stupid. O_O

but im gonna do it anyways cause im bored. lol. xD

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instructions:

1. Tangkap @ sertakan 3 keping gambar anda yang anda rasakan paling seksi.
2. Tak semestinya tak berpakaian atau mendedahkan. Mungkin anda rasa senyuman anda masa itu adalah seksi. Sertakan!!! (Semangatnya -_-)
3. Nyatakan kenapa gambar itu begitu seksi di mata anda?

4. Tag 5 rakan-rakan anda yang seksi.
5. Selamat berseksi.

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so anyways. here goes!!

(1)

This picture is sexy because we were goofing off in the library when we were supposed to be studying. and goofing off in the library is always dorky sexy! also. everyone was doing their own sexy thing in this picture. fyza was doing that typical cute face of hers ;) , i was ....going insane well. i dont know what the hell was i doing at that time. but it looks funny. (and funny is also sexy. lol), lisa was looking at me like i've gone mad, and mai. well. mai just looks blur and unsure. lol. haihz. yepyep. what a wonderfully sexy moment.

(2)


this picture is sexy because it was the last time we hanged out as roommates. it's like looking at ourselves enjoying a stress free evening from an outsider's point of view. it's really nostalgic and smile inducing. haihz. i totally miss my roommies :) oh. and this picture is also very smexxyyy because butts are generally very sexy. and there's a whole lotta butts here. LOL. XD

(3)

well. this picture is sexy because this is the only picture i took wearing specs. lol. (yes i am that self-conscious vain) and it actually looks decent. the only other picture that makes me look sexy in a pair of spectacles is this one,


and no. i do NOT dress or act like this on a daily basis. lol. the baju was actually for a dance we were going to perform at the paramount championship competition. we were supposed to be dorks. lol. and i think we had totally succeeded in looking like stupid dorks. oh. and dorks are DEFINITELY nerdy sexy! just look at superman when he wore specs and worked as a journalist. yeah. he was a dork. but he was also incredibly sexyyyyy. uh-huhhhh ;p now that's what i'm talking about! :)

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so yeahhhh...thats it then. and yesh. i know i cheated 'cause i included 4 pictures instead of 3. but what the heck! this survey is stupid anyways. that is why im not tagging it to anyone. lol. and for the first time ever, i have just posted a completely useless pointless blog post. lol. but it was fun and nostalgic. teehee~ XD

obssesion

i am now hopelessly addicted to three things:

1) trickster
2) online shopping
3) the pellinor series

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TRICKSTER is this online rpg game that is oh-so-very awesome. its like ragnarok. only it's free. i am extremely head over heels obsessed with liking this game a lot. i was actually addicted to it before coming to uitm but i stopped due to the hectic-ness of being a pre-law student. but since i am now free as hell and not to mention bored beyond belief, im starting to play it again. am currently at lvl 90. lol. im such a dork. teehee~ xD

ONLINE SHOPPING is this new thing that i have just discovered and am currently obsessing over. since i love shopping but am too malas to get outta the house, it was a godsend that i had actually stumbled upon an online boutique selling super cool clothes. and then one thing led to another and before i know it, i was already browsing through hundreds (yes. hundreds.) of online boutiques selling all sorts of stuff; from clothes to bags to even stationary. its so awesome. and the best part is that they're all malaysian owned so its super easy for me pay for the items. i just bought a cardigan and am anxiously waiting for it to arrive next week. lol. xD check out the website if u want: http://wardroberehab.blogspot.com

THE PELLINOR SERIES is this fantasy book series written by Allison Croggon. she's an australian writer and an award winning poet. it's just an amazing set of books and i love her writing style 'cause its so beautiful and descriptive. its just awesome to read. i bought the 2nd and 3rd book recently and it has burned a bloody hole in my pocket because it was only available in hard cover not paperback. there were no paperbacks left in borders. and MPH didn't even have the 2nd and 1st book anymore cause its all sold out. so i had to search for it at popular then at borders. but its totally worth it though :) love it!

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so yeahh....

ACTUALLY... now that i think about it. i now sound like an anti-social couch potato who hates leaving the house and spends all her free time at home playing rpg games. im barely even facebooking now. ahhh shit. im turning into a geeek. or am i one already? *gasps!!!* lol. gosh. i need to get out more. O_O

hillarious!

watched the movie "blades of glory" on my laptop for the gazillionth time last night. lol. it never gets old. i absolutely love will ferrell and jon heder. they're awesome! :)

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ULTIMATE FAV. MOMENTS IN THE MOVIE
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(1)

Jimmy: So, Coach, I was thinking about the music for our routine.
Coach: Oh, really?
Chazz: We're gonna dance to one song, and one song only: "Lady Humps" by the Blackeyed Peas. "What you gonna do with all that junk, all that junk inside your trunk? I’m a get you, get you drunk, get you drunk off my lady humps, my humps, my humps, my lovely lady humps."
Jimmy: [disgusted] I'm not skating to anything with references to lady humps. I don't even know what that means.
Chazz: No one knows what it means, but it's provocative...
Jimmy: No, it's not, it's gross...
Chazz: It gets the people going!

(2)

Jimmy: I don't share rooms.
Chazz: I don't share SHIT...

(3)

Jimmy: I see you got fat.
Chazz: I see you still look like a fifteen year old girl, but not hot.

as seen in

'Blades Of Glory'

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oh. and my personal favourite,

[to Jimmy's voice mail] If we went to a Halloween party dressed as Batman and Robin, I'd go as Robin. That's how much you mean to me...

WILL FARRELL as Chazz in 'Blades of Glory'.

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lol. hillarious! xD

oh, the drudgery.

i am now stuck in pontian, johor and i am LITERALLY dying of boredom.

If boredom doesn't eventually consume me, im sure the heat would. It’s so hot here, and there’s no AC. Feels like hell. With lots of flies. there are flies everywhere. O_O

My grandma’s house is also lacking a proper toilet. Which sucks. The toilet’s outside. Literally. So annoyingly gross. And there’s no malls, cinemas, or any fast food chains. There’s only one mirror in this whole fucking house. And it’s so extremely tiny, it cant even fit my whole face. And there’s no astro, only horrifyingly boring local channels which is always blurred due to bad reception.

On a brighter note though, there’s internet connection :)

But its so fucking slow, its pointless :/

Lastly, there’s no forks!! Can you believe it?? How can u not have forks in the house???!!! IT’S INSANEEEEE! How the heck am i gonna eat my precious maggi mee??? Fucklaaa. Somebody fucking get me outta here. And quick. Before i completely lose it!!! >.>

okay. here you go guys. sorry it took so long. xD

sucks.

it sucks that im so bloody weak. so bloody emotional. so bloody sensitive. so easily effective by things. it sucks that when i start tearing up, i cant stop. i go the whole way. the whole fucking painfully torturous way. and when the tears start to fall and my vision starts to blur, it sucks that it still keeps on going, the tears keep on falling. the lump in my throat keeps getting bigger. choking me. making me sob even harder. making my whole body convulse even harder. sobbing loudly in the corner, it sucks that im always angry at myself for not being able to stop; to be able to take a deep breath, calm down and just stop fucking bawling like a crazed idiot. and it sucks even more that when my body is already wracked with self pity and guilt and that my eyes are already red, swollen and disgusting looking, i have to get up and go looking for a fucking tissue box to wipe my nose which is currently the size of my fist and running like a motherfucker.


so yeahh..it basically sucks.
big time.

so it IS not JUST paranoia....

i am, in fact, cursed with bad luck.
the world is, in fact, out to get me.
the odds are, in fact, always against me.
and misery does, in fact, always find company.
company in the form of my pathetic self.
life is just so unfair.
O_O



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and no matter what you say ayah,
I AM DEFINITELY FUCKING OLD ENOUGH TO STAY ON MY OWN. SO FUCKING LET GO ALREADY AND STOP BEING SO BLOODY PROTECTIVE. YOU'RE FUCKING CHOKING ME. I'M LITERALLY SUFFOCATING!!



let me breathe for crying out loud!

let me breath...